September 28, 2011
As for....Blane?!
This is Duckie's reaction face to Blane's name. In Pretty in Pink.....duh. "Blane's not a name! It's a major appliance!" Hence, my car's name is Blane. Just thought this was pertinent to life. It seems to me that who you are in your car alone and driving is very emblematic of...the essence of you. Sure, it's a mundane exercise we need to complete to get from point A to point B, but who we really are gets expressed in the little things, the mundanities. Do you like to roll down the windows even when it's autumn and crispy cold outside? Do you dangle your fingertips over the windowpane? Do you tap your left foot along with the music? Is there music? Is it in the background or is it the only thing that keeps you from falling asleep? Do you turn your music down or up when the windows are open? Do you listen to NPR? Do you feel superior to the people walking? Do you hate pedestrians? Are you aggressive? Timid? Easily frustrated?
I hate slow drivers and yet I never cross far over the speed limit. I blast acoustic music with the windows open. I like that crisp air. I close my windows and sing very badly and very loudly. These were moving interludes tend to, in a way, condense my mood. It's the moments in between when everything outside can stop and you can just...turn inwards.
Oh no, my introversion is making itself known again.
Today in physics I wrote haikus about wanting to get out of here. Maybe I'll compile all my boredoutofmymind senior haikus (written in bubble letters) into a monotonous chapbook illustrating utter boredom. In the sense that the contents will be about being bored and reading it will be boring. How postmodern of me.
It's 10pm and I'm done with homework. Except I will never go to sleep.
As for slow sipping
I recently migrated my laptop-ing home into *drumroll please* the guest room! As opposed to my bed, that is. Previous classic Jess computing position: in bed reclined on the husband with laptop firmly perched on ovaries, slowly frying my eggs. Current classic Jess computing position: at desk reclined on super-comfy chair with wood firmly absorbing computer heat (not ovaries!). We've made a lot of progress. Aren't you proud of me? Anyways, my new home has enabled me to appreciate this room's beauty much more. It's got all of my great-grandmother's vintage furnishings in it, and the large window faces West - so I get full frontal sunsets on the daily. Needless to say, some really pretty moments come along. Here's a sampling from yesterday....
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I've also been hitting up my femme singers even more...I just recently discovered Breagh MacKinnon. I did my research on the interwebs and unfortunately the only way to get her music is via the big bucks, but believe me, the $6ish dollars on iTunes is well worth it. Heartstroking lyrics, and she *ahem* exhibits both breadth and depth in her freshman album. Each of her songs has a different rhythm to it, and yet they all beautifully meld together if you're listening to her in the background. Somehow she's one of those artists you study to, but also whose lyrics you know all of. Note: great beginning/during/ending relationship music for those that is applicable for.
The Dum Dum Girls also just recently released their new album, Only in Dreams, which is fantastic. Straight up dance-around-your-room good music. I already put "Coming Down" on my Woman Playlist for you guys - definitely her requisite angsty song (not in a bad way at all). However, the other tracks really go to a more positive place. Some songs are good for happy man hating ("Just a Creep"), but mainly it's all just perfect for I-just-developed-a-crush times (i.e. "I'd rather visit you in my head" from "In My Head). Y'know what I mean: you just realized you thought he was cute, and he gave you that suggestive side glance and *swoon* oh, the possibilities! Have fun with it :)
In other more mundane news - I've gotten into the habit of consuming my latte over a 6 hour period. My heat-containing travel coffee mug is definitely my enabler. S'great.
September 26, 2011
As for college
With the onset of fall (and sweaters) I have assumed the 'don'tgiveashit' style. Exploiting my mom's extensive collection of sweaters and flannel from the 90s, nearly every day is a cozyfest. This weekend, I lived in my thick opaque leggings, oversized sweater, and fuzzy boots (they feel like Uggs on the inside...but are actually attractive on the outside). I may or may not occasionally wear dresses with sweaters over them (yup, I went there) Angela Chase style.
I had a college interview last week at my first choice college. And no, in case you were wondering, I'm not going to tell you what it is because 1. people judge people based on their ambition and 2. dude, I'll totally be embarrassed if I don't get in. So, that being said, I've realized over the past year or so of the college admissions process something about myself that I'm actually really thankful for - I like lots of things. Hence, I love many of my college options. So you know what? When I don't get in to college A and say that I'm actually delighted to go to college B... I'm actually telling the truth. Novel, right?
Also I had really great berry blend froyo today. That's all :)
I had a college interview last week at my first choice college. And no, in case you were wondering, I'm not going to tell you what it is because 1. people judge people based on their ambition and 2. dude, I'll totally be embarrassed if I don't get in. So, that being said, I've realized over the past year or so of the college admissions process something about myself that I'm actually really thankful for - I like lots of things. Hence, I love many of my college options. So you know what? When I don't get in to college A and say that I'm actually delighted to go to college B... I'm actually telling the truth. Novel, right?
Also I had really great berry blend froyo today. That's all :)
As for bread
Ok, guys, on Saturday I went to a "breakfast breads" baking class - it was so much fun. I'd never gone to a cooking class before, but I saw the advertisement for this and it was right up my alley. We made brioche, pumpkin muffins, maple muffins, banana nut muffins, and cream scones (which were impossibly flakey). Seriously, why lift weights when you can make brioche? We needed the dough for over half an hour - some would say it's frustrating, I would say it's the definition of baking. Getting your hands dirty, really working with the dough. I enjoyed myself :)
Also, for no explained reason, I stayed up until 3am last night....most of it I spent organizing my life but then it got to the point where I decided to eat a scone, dunk my hair in the shower, put on my glasses, and watch Freaks & Geeks. So, you know, we live and learn. What did I learn, you may ask? Well, stay up until 3am as often as you can. It was a fun time. And then I slept way too late but I'm blaming that on the sickness.
Also, for no explained reason, I stayed up until 3am last night....most of it I spent organizing my life but then it got to the point where I decided to eat a scone, dunk my hair in the shower, put on my glasses, and watch Freaks & Geeks. So, you know, we live and learn. What did I learn, you may ask? Well, stay up until 3am as often as you can. It was a fun time. And then I slept way too late but I'm blaming that on the sickness.
September 21, 2011
As for sick days
So I open my eyes this morning, and right away I know. Fever. That pressing suffocating feeling of your head being dragged through the bed....and I haven't even opened my eyes yet. I stumble, semi-delirious, into my bathroom and take my temperature. In my groggy state I hardly believe the numbers - 103 degrees. Great. I don't have the time or the patience to be sick! Crap. Needless to say, I had to miss school. Not happy. I hate being behind. I felt like a puddle all day.
BUT I just got the next Freaks and Geeks disc in the mail, so I was quite content with switching between my Nick Andopolis, Downtown Abbey, The Daily Show, and The Playboy Club pilot (better than I expected! entertaining).
I also got bangs yesterday - I think I like them. But change is good.
BUT I just got the next Freaks and Geeks disc in the mail, so I was quite content with switching between my Nick Andopolis, Downtown Abbey, The Daily Show, and The Playboy Club pilot (better than I expected! entertaining).
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I have been listening to lots of female singers for the past couple of days, so here it is! The Woman Playlist. Apologies if it's kind of mopey/depressing.
Coming Down - Dum Dum Girls
Swan Song - A Fine Frenzy
Daffodils - Olivia Drusin
1+1 - Beyoncé
Crimson & Clover - Joan Jett
Rhiannon - Fleetwood Mac
My Slumbering Heart - Rilo Kiley
Acid Tongue - Jenny Lewis
Quiet Fire - Melody Gardot
Love Is - Meg & Dia
Someone Like You - Adele
Gatekeeper - Feist
Naked If I Want To - Cat Power
The Mistress - Amelia Curran
Stupid - Sarah McLachlan
In the End - Ida Maria
Autumn Leaves - Eva Cassidy
New Favorite - Alison Krauss & Union Station
Blinding (Acoustic) - Florence & The Machine
September 16, 2011
As for mundanity
You guys should just know I'm totally geeking out on life right now - listening to Cold Cold Water really loud because it just hits your core like that and it's so damn true and trying on stuff from Urban that I ordered (had to send half back, obviously - oh, life as an abnormally proportioned person) but I got a lovely fall dress out of it, in which I feel like an Italian 20something who makes herself beautiful breakfasts on the porch of her beautiful villa and just lives a beautiful life and a black part leather letterman jacket which actually fits me (who'da thunk it?) in which I feel slightly badass. In other news about myself that you don't care about - I'm gonna get bangs. Straight across bangs (I've had the same haircut since seventh grade, this is very exciting for me). Definitely feels more right.
Also, tonight I watched (on Netflix Instant! Woot!) Last Night. Ok, the plot is not the most original. Husband goes on business trip, both husband and wife have opportunity to cheat - what do they do and what happens when he returns? Well, I'm just going to make this loud and clear: THIS MOVIE IS WORTH WATCHING. It is one of those beautiful movies in which the moments in silence, the mundane actions, and the pure wordless acting are crucial. The writing is, to put it lightly, beautiful. One of the first thoughts I had while watching it was - this is the truest movie I've seen in a long time. It's heartbreakingly honest and the characters are so real. And not in the hipster movie "all our characters are struggling in their 20somethings and swear a lot because they are real" kind of way, but the honest way. The way in which you can't imagine them reading or memorizing their lines. By the end of it, expect to feel immensely melancholy.
Also, tonight I watched (on Netflix Instant! Woot!) Last Night. Ok, the plot is not the most original. Husband goes on business trip, both husband and wife have opportunity to cheat - what do they do and what happens when he returns? Well, I'm just going to make this loud and clear: THIS MOVIE IS WORTH WATCHING. It is one of those beautiful movies in which the moments in silence, the mundane actions, and the pure wordless acting are crucial. The writing is, to put it lightly, beautiful. One of the first thoughts I had while watching it was - this is the truest movie I've seen in a long time. It's heartbreakingly honest and the characters are so real. And not in the hipster movie "all our characters are struggling in their 20somethings and swear a lot because they are real" kind of way, but the honest way. The way in which you can't imagine them reading or memorizing their lines. By the end of it, expect to feel immensely melancholy.
September 15, 2011
As for simple days
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Today was a good day.
When I was in elementary school, I used to keep a diary. There were no long and emotional entries, no chronicles of playground debacles, no rants on the crushable boy I was swinging next to that morning - instead each day only had a couple of lines. As per my mother's suggestion, I started every day with how that day felt. So literally every entry for about 2 years was "Today was a good day." Believe me, those were not all good days. Today was a good day. It was the kind of day I tend to describe with textural adjectives, i.e. crunchy, juicy.
It's even amazing what an extra hour of sleep can do. I felt mentally intact. It was amazing. Cream cheese slathered bagel crunches in my mouth as I wash it down with a wonderfully bitter latte. School day floats by like the wasted time it is. Boots click clack on the rain-slicked pavement.
And then I see him skateboard across the crosswalk a couple of cars ahead of me and thank god I didn't leave a moment earlier.
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