March 19, 2012

As for spring

It was 80 degrees today. Hence, my Spring Breeze Windows Open playlist.

Rivers and Roads - The Head and the Heart
Where'd All The Time Go - Dr. Dog
Virgins - The Morning Benders
Honey Come Home - The Head and the Heart
Blue Skies - Noah and the Whale
New Slang - The Shins
The Breeze - Dr. Dog
When They Fight, They Fight - The Generationals
Funny Little Frog - Belle & Sebastian
Waterloo Sunset - The Kinks
All For Swinging You Around - The New Pornographers
Gold On The Ceiling - The Black Keys

March 18, 2012

As for an update

Sorry I've been a little detached lately, I don't know, I just haven't really felt like writing here. That's ok though. It's been really nice being into a really good college, I can't lie. I worked my ass off for this, and it feels really nice to have earned it. In other academic news, my school's second trimester just finished up. All done with exams. Phew. I was really getting sick of those classes. Now - done with calculus and physics forever! This is especially good because I had a particularly incompetent teacher for my AP Physics class, and I really couldn't stand him any longer! Since last I wrote, however, the big whopper is that I have turned 18! Now I can do exciting things like get a lottery ticket, gun, piercing, and a tattoo. You know what I did? Registered to vote. Classic! I also went to a 90s themed party last night. It was fun at times. Things I like about high school parties: hanging out in the 'chill' rooms listening to someone play acoustic guitar. Things I don't like about high school parties: being dragged into a gyrating circle of sexually frustrated teenagers. Whatever. There were a couple of people there who I liked, so that was good at least.

However, the really remarkable thing about my long weekend has been my cousins, aunt, uncle, and dad's grandparents coming over for my birthday. Yesterday was really nice. I woke up early and baked a chocolate birthday cake with my mom, which turned out fabulously, if I may say so myself. That afternoon my family gifted me the time capsule they created in my first year, that has been kept a secret from me since! I can't even write about it, it was simply moving.

Right now, I'm just looking forward to having new classes this week and finding out from more schools! The weird thing is, now that I've gotten into an upper tier school, I really don't want to get into any of my targets/schools I now know I'm not going to go to; I'll just feel guilty! Oh well, how could I've known. I find out about two places this week, and the rest of my schools in the coming two weeks (all by about April 5). Exciting! I guess that's what feels so I feel excited, and not anxious. Now, finding out about a school isn't a matter of whether or not I'll have some place to go next year that I'm proud of, but going somewhere that's actually the best fit for me. That's a luxury I'm thankful for, believe me.

Also, my latest pop(not really) culture obsessions. I've recently gotten completely addicted to Mad Men. I've been watching it backwards - all of season four, then three, and I just started season two. Somehow, it makes it more interesting this way! I've also loved watching the new show Smash - I recommend it to you all. That show knows what it's doing; it's got class. Besides, you know how much I love musical theater. I was dinking around on youtube earlier this week and I stumbled upon the music from the 1968 film Oliver - memories! God those songs were a huge part of my childhood's theatrical repertoire. I love that soundtrack. Also, Patti LuPone, blowing my mind. I'm a total theater geek, deal with it. Tears I tell you, tears!


March 7, 2012


Shocked relief is the state I'm in. I'm ecstatic to get in...and the fact that I got a likely letter is just icing on the cake. I can't really articulate.....I'm so excited....but this should give you an idea of the kind of anxiety I've been feeling up until tonight! It's just strange to see getting into an Ivy League as a human feat. Up until now it's kind of seemed like this alien entity that so many wish for, but only the obscenely amazing get. And I don't see how they saw me as good enough...but they did. And all that matters is that the options that will now be open to me in life just increased exponentially. Plus - I just found out where I might spend the next four years of my life! I can't even think straight. This is everything.

As for a return

I feel so like myself. It's a huge relief, I can't even begin to tell you. I'm sitting here at the cafe before my college class begins, slowly sipping chai and nibbling an oatmeal raisin cookie. I turned in my mini-essay this morning and completed the final (except for the final exam) physics test! I'm really excited about this trimester. Not even just about physics and calculus ending, but about the new classes starting. Even though I'm going to have two subpar teachers, I'm so excited about the material. Plus - I'll be a third trimester senior! Can you believe it's March already? Can you believe it! I can't believe we've made it this long. I actually feel like we're in the final stretch, and that's incredibly reinvigorating. Plus, they're playing cute 60s music on the loudspeakers and it's nearly 60 degrees. I still have work to do, but that's ok. I'm just so relieved I'm into college, and only three weeks until I hear the results from the others!

I wrote the above paragraph at 1:30pm. At 6:30pm I received a "likely" letter from an Ivy League school, basically accepting me. Needless to say, it's been a great day.

March 3, 2012

I don't feel like myself lately. I feel discouraged, I don't care, I'm not doing my homework. Usually when I get like this, I consequently feel the need to escape, to do something risky, out of the ordinary. But now, I've already done those things.There are things I want - I want time to pass, I want to be in university. But those things are out of my control at the moment; there isn't even anyone I want. I'm just listening to the Garden State soundtrack and staring at the ceiling. I'm going to hang out with one of my risks tomorrow and I don't even care.

I'm not even thinking. What's wrong with me?

The Great Escape - Patrick Watson