As for feeling apathetic

Of course I am. I hate being able to sleep late. Not universally that is, but in excess. When I have absolutely nothing planned for a weekend...or a week....or a couple of months, I get apathetic. Oh, this is why I like overachieving: I'm always busy! Unfortunately, my next busy period starts in March. That's when third trimester comes along and the play I'm directing starts rehearsing, so I'm really excited for then. But now - not so much. Tonight I'm going out. This should help things in a not entirely healthy or guided fashion.